The second premise of the warriors’ way is called WE ARE WHAT OUR INCEPTION IS. This is one of the most difficult premises of the warriors’ way because it is nearly impossible for any of us to admit certain conditions pertaining to ourselves.
Don Juan Matus explained, “One of the most serious things warriors do is to search, confirm, and realize the nature of their inception. Warriors must know as accurately as they can whether their parents were sexually excited when they conceived them, or whether they were merely fulfilling a conjugal function. Sorcerers believe, without a shadow of a doubt, that children conceived in a civilized fashion are the products of a very bored… fuck”. Sorcerers assert that such children are needy, weak, unstable, and dependent. They search, for the duration of our lives, for that original excitation that we were deprived of.
After being told he was a “bored fuck,” Castaneda asked what he could do. Don Juan explained that the first maneuver is to become a miser of energy, because a B.F. does not have any energy to waste. Abstinence was the answer, not for moral reasons, but as the only way to store enough energy.
“Sorcerers say,” he went on, “that it is possible to turn a B.F. into something inconceivable. It is just a matter of intending it; I mean, intending the inconceivable. To do this… one must use anything that is available, anything at all”. A sensation, a memory, a wish, an urge; perhaps fear, desperation, hope; perhaps curiosity.
(Carlos Castaneda, The Warrior’s Way – A Journal of Applied Hermeneutics)
